Walk With Faith: July 2009

I haven't written in a while and thought it was time. I have had so many emotions recently and just thought I would get them down on "paper". It has been 9 1/2 weeks since our Jonah went to be with Jesus. I miss him SOOO bad. Everyone says it will get better with time. But apparently 9 1/2 weeks is not enough time. It is getting somewhat better, but it feels like it was just yesterday I was holding him in my arms. I would do anything to be able to hold him again. I look at his pictures and his little face was so perfect and I just wish the rest of his little body was perfect too. I know now it is, and I know he is in a much better place and Jesus is taking good care of him. It's still very very hard to see people with babies - it breaks my heart because I still want Jonah so very bad. It's still extremely hard to hear about people abusing kids and killing children, etc. I just wish I was the person who had to decide what their punishment is, but I have to remember that they will have to answer to the good Lord above for what they have done. I heard one story on TV last night that was about a woman who killed her infant and then dismembering his body. HORRIBLE!! TERRIBLE!! STUPID!!! I just wish I had 5 minutes with this person, if you can even call her a person. It broke my heart and brought back so many emotions. I would do ANYTHING to have Jonah back in my arms and here this stupid woman is killing and dismembering her child. She does not deserve the air she breathes. Okay I have said my peace about that. I feel much better.

Anyway. We have not been able to get Jonah's marker yet, but I hope we can before Christmas. The cemetery has gotten the columns up for the Military Ranks and it looks so nice. His spot will be beautiful before long. I have been thinking of ways I could use what I have gone thru in a positive way for others. I was thinking I may could go to hospitals after a woman has lost their baby and talk and comfort them. Not sure if this makes sense. But I think sometimes it helps to hear other peoples stories and how they got thru things. I'm not even sure if the hospitals do things like this or would let me do this, but I may check into it. Not sure yet.

I'm so thankful for the prayers that we received going thru this horrible experience and I'm very thankful for the prayers we are still getting. Thank you so much!! I know Jesus has another beautiful angel in his arms. Jonah is now perfect and just waiting on us to get there with him!

I wanted to post some pictures that we got from the day our baby went to heaven. He was so beautiful (words from a proud Mama).