Sunday, March 27, 2011

Recently...

I can't believe it is already March!! This year is flying by. It seems like I say override I'm going to keep my blog updated and I don't. Anyway, I have had a few ask me to update, so here it is.

Everything is pretty good. Just working, staying busy, baseball, trying to exercise....busy!!! I recently started the Couch to 5k program. I am doing pretty good (I think), just need to work harder on the diet!! There are just to many temptations!! I'm going to do better though. I'm excited about the future for sure!! I recently found a park here that I can walk and the boys can play on a playground, so that will help for sure!!

Speaking of busy, my hubby is in college, working full time, so he is very busy too. We are very proud of him. I know our life can be challenging, but we are very proud of everything he is doing to better himself and better our family!! We love you Jamie!!!

Yesterday, I participated in a 3 mile walk for the SIDS Foundation of MS. 2 friends from work walked with me (thank you Angie and Heather). We got there and signed up and they thanked everyone for being there and they started reading the list of names of all of the sweet babies that had passed away due to SIDS. Everyone had a balloon and when they called your child's name, you would release your balloon or you waited until the end. It was so sweet. I did good until that moment. Seeing all of the balloons made me remember Baby Jonah Myles's first Birthday when we released our balloons. Oh my goodness, the tears just started flowing. The walk went very well. We got to the 2 mile mark and there was a shortcut to the end, but we kept going (GO US!!!) Even though it was only 3 miles, it was an accomplishment!! Especially knowing that we did it to help someone in the long run. I pray for everyone, every family, who has lost their baby due to SIDS. I pray that God heals their hearts and comforts them!! It has really made me think a lot of Jonah Myles. I just miss him soooo much. I just wonder what he would be doing right now. In less than 2 months, he would be 2 years old!!! Is it wrong to wish I was planning a 2nd Birthday for him instead of trying to decide what color flowers to put on his grave? But at the end of the day, I know God has a plan, and he had a reason for doing what he did. So....what do I do? I will go to my favorite florist in the world (Chapman's Florist) and tell Mrs. Lisa that our baby needs new flowers and trust in God that he gets me thru like he always has. How could I do this without him? How could I make it day by day and think of Jonah and talk about Jonah and not cry? It's only by his love and mercy that I have made it and I'm so thankful for his love!!! God is AMAZING!!!!!

I think of the song, "How Can I Keep From Singing". How can we keep from singing his praise? How can we not find time daily thank him for what he does for us? I will be the first to admit, I fail a lot of times, and that is something I will be working on. I never want to be so busy that I don't have time for God, because he always has time for me. It's truly amazing!!!!

Closing this, I pray for all of my family and friends!! Thank you for being a part of my life!!

~Jenn~